Oh, the sneaky little thoughts that creep into my head. I can rationalize them quite well, but they are the little thoughts that undo the larger picture--in this case, my decision to increase the margins in my life by limiting my errands and increasing my day at home. This all with the purpose of focusing my limited energy on what is really important and to help heal my body.
The sneaky thoughts start like this, "These are very short errands certainly I can do one more." or "That person will be so blessed if I drop this off at her work." or "My husband mentioned the car needs oil and I should stop to get it."
If I am honest, my thoughts sound like my kids as they push the boundary we have provided for them--for their safety, growth in character, and our family's sanity.
So, I did the two errands and since one was at the post office, I sent the small package to my friend instead of hand delivering it. I did not stop for the motor oil and had to content myself that someone else could pick up the motor oil.
What this all meant for the rest of my day is that I could "tackle" the growing pile of financial papers, finish my online Christmas shopping, tend to a few other home tasks, interact with my son, and go on a date with my husband to celebrate our 32nd anniversary!
My tendency to rationalize around the margins is part of my human nature. Though, in this case, my margins are not based on scripture (but maybe some wisdom) it would not be sin to deviate. However, it might cause me to miss out on what I should be doing or learning or healing. I am also aware that I can have this tendency to rationalize when it is an issue of following God's command: trust, pray without ceasing, give thanks, be kind, take captive every thought to Christ . . . Please forgive me, Lord, for rationalizing and excusing my nibbling at the edges of Your plan for me.
The EXCEPTIONS allowed may lead to EXCELLENCE denied.
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